I DIDN’T HEAR THEIR CRIES
I hoped and prayed to give birth to a baby
with labor pains and precise breathing, this was my dream.
What happened was science intervention
an emergency C-section, no pain or quick breathing;
I find this to be very sad.
They were lifted out of my being, one at a time
and handed off to the waiting teams to care for their needs.
I laid their on the bed listening to the words being spoken,
praying I would hear the sounds, I was so anxiously hoping.
I laid in silence waiting to be moved
and asked my doctor, “how are my boys?”
In a very compassionate tone he responded, “they are in good hands.”
But doctor, “how could that be, I didn’t hear their cries.”
He looked at me with very sad eyes
and said, “dear we are fighting very hard to save their lives.”
I wrote this poem one day when I was feeling sorry for myself. I try not. I try not to dwell on the past but there are times I am reminded, hearing a song or watching a movie related to my sorrows.
It is okay to remember the bad times as long as they are tucked back into your heart and soul where they will be safe.
Much hugs,
Jude
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My business officially opened on January 1, 2018. It was extremely hard to create a brand, learn social media and find the networking needed to promote and gain recognition. I achieved my goals and I look forward to new adventures in the future.
I am a certified Zentangle teacher and certified as an art practitioner. My brand tag is “heal your heart with art.” I know because it healed my heart. As an art practitioner I was trained to inspire, teach within a nonjudgmental environment and build self confidence with all my students. I love teaching Zentangle Art. It is easy to learn. Currently I am teaching local workshops online at www.Skillshare.com.
My business is dedicated to the legacy of my son who was born prematurely with his twin brother in 1979 and he developed severe brain damage after a brain hemorrhage one week after birth. He lived for twenty-eight years and passed away in December, 2006. I created art through the years while I was caring for him and in 2018 I realized I should share my love of art and my belief of its healing power and Scrapper Jude Designs LLC was born.
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You bet it is okay to remember bad times. I think we honor those times when our hearts were stretched more than we dreamed could be possible. I join in your honoring this day so full of many feelings and events that changed your life! have a lovely day Jude! ❤
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May I share this?
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Thank you and feel free to share. Hugs Jude
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OH good I did. I am very touched by your story. It’s very tender. I think it’s so good! Hugs to you Jude! ♡
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Reblogged this on Tell Me About It and commented:
This touched my heart…one sweet mom heart to another! This is beautiful from Jude! ❤
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This is a very sad poem. Both my boys were born by C section and both have suffered extreme health problems. I feel your pain.
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I am so sorry. I too feel your pain. 😞
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